Friday, June 17, 2016

The gypsy ranch ,This is My dream, Our cure for our sick world..

Please keep in mind this is a rough draft , just wanted to share my dream im working towards...   Sanctuary must be available to every living creature .

   Marcus Aurelius  said the soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts....
Life is never good or evil but a place for good and evil...
Where a man can live he can also live well..
Reject your sense of injury and the injury disappears...
     Look back over the past, with its changing empires that rose and fell, and you can foresee the future, too.

In The Soul of Man  .... Oscar Wilde speaks of a libertarian socialist worldview and a critique of charity.
Wilde argues that, under capitalism, "the majority of people spoil their lives by an unhealthy and exaggerated altruism.
Caring people "seriously and very sentimentally set themselves to the task of remedying the evils that they see in poverty but their remedies do not cure the disease: they merely prolong it" because, as Wilde puts it, "the proper aim is to try and reconstruct society on such a basis that poverty will be impossible."
Wilde examined the political conditions necessary for full self-development and devotion to art, arguing, "Art is individualism, and individualism is a disturbing and disintegrating force. There lies its immense value. For what it seeks to disturb is monotony of type, slavery of custom, tyranny of habit, and the reduction of man to the level of a machine."
With the abolition of private property, then, we shall have true, beautiful, healthy Individualism. Nobody will waste his life in accumulating things, and the symbols for things. One will live. To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.

      So while my goal will house homeless,and  help our brothers and sisters to acquire a dignity most have lost all hope of ever finding again, its so much more.

I plan to accept everyone, it doesn't matter whats in your pocket, or who you are . When you walk onto the gypsy ranch you are equal with every other. While I do have a plan to build a few bunk houses as a separation tactic while we are doing back ground checks , the results of the check will determine where on the ranch someone will be placed , or in extreme cases if they need to be restricted or isolated for their safety and others.

My core concept is to build a environment psychologically safe for everyone . To form a community structured around true equality and dignity for everyone.

A grate insult to our species is the epidemic of homelessness, and this is not a problem with the unfortunate souls who have no shelter but in fact with the society undeserving of the diamonds its tossed under bridges and into falsely advertised concentration camps . You all have no Idea how many wonderful gifts have been lost to mankind because we ignored this travesty.However with The Gypsy ranch I can not only give everyone there own home , but also have community events, fellowship building activities  ,support groups ,and even give everyone (resident or not) a chance to teach a class about almost anything. A trading circle will be established much like at the rainbow gatherings , allowing anyone and every one to lay our a blanket and trade goods. Community kitchens and large gardens, public bathhouses , and a man maid lake .. will make it a healing retreat .

Night time activities such as bon fires and drum circles.

To be a black sheep, scapegoat,  myself  I have seen much of our world and feel like the majority of us that the power is under the thumb of underserved mega monsters pushing conservation of theories and thoughts that no longer hold structure . The ideals society molds are light years away from the original thoughts as it came from our wisest minds of men .

Its no secret our world is officially reached epidemic proportions of confusion.
       As many are blaming technology, if you have read my blog you know that I dont only disagree, but find that ridiculing on your own ignorance. Its the people using the technology.

  What better answer to something that you dont understand could there be than anger and fear ?

So many people are talking about the times now and how horrible things have gotten but no one wants to do anything , well even  if it takes my entire life to build this place, I will build it . If no one else wants to approach this problem thats just fine ... I want these people , I want your sick, tiered and hungry, i can never have to many people to in my heart.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

America is abolishing parental rights ... no proof , no court order, no investigation needed

The American black market for children,
The truth on the REAL ISSUES they distract you from... 
 In America millions of children are taken away from good loving homes and adopted out illegally.
When my daughter was stolen I was working , as a tattoo artist , selling paintings ((each painting was sold between $100-$3000 ), and freelance artwork. I also taught a %free after school art class , Which I started to keep kids in Oklahoma City safe out of trouble.
The conspiracy to take my children included defamation of my character. They kidnapped my daughter first trying to get custody  in Oklahoma, but ((after a 6 mo court battle))I won full custody. The first time I was investigated by child protective services, and thoroughly investigated because of false allegations they made claiming everything from drug use to prostitution , and homelessness to mental problems. However ,dcs  in noble county Oklahoma found no reason to believe that I had been an unfit parent, and as if that wasnt enough to allow me to keep my own daughter , my mother the one trying to get custody, and now has custody,my mother , made false complaints to child protective services in every place I went , even if I was only visiting a place .So the dcs in blairsville Georgia,AND Knoxville Tennessee both investigated and  found no reason to claim I was an unfit parent. The Knoxville cps even was astonished by what I did to fight for my daughter , a custody battle is emotionally traumatic, but being harassed and slandered by my own mother is  torture, And I was harrassed  and slandered so much I was even keeping a journal on every thing she and i did , ate, or even watched on tv .
   The second time the petitioned for custody in union county Georgia, they made sure I had no idea that they had filed for custody, knowing that I would have done anything I had to to fight against them. Just like before I had not done anything wrong, but this time cps wasn't involved, cps didn't investigate , this time the multiple times I was investigated because of the SAME PERSON making complaints against me  this time neither my daughter or I would have a lawyer .
As It has happened to me as well I can tell you this DOES HAPPEN !!
None of this injustice has been difficult to hide, because courts and judges are willing to voluntarily working against protocols and help hide the secret ....

I have been telling my story , over and over, for years. I left my home , my mom stole my children out from under me , she destroyed my life ,just for the social security checks to care for them. I sold my car ((my z 28 Camaro ))….I put  Everything  I had into trying to get my daughter’s home. Only to be treated like I wasn’t even a human being. A bug , a cockroach to the fabulous Alexander family. The looks from random people the entire town shame from gossip spread from nastiness of greed and selfish control  , they drove me out.

But how could my mother do these things to her own daughter ?….. why would the Alexander family Ignore my cries for help?  Could It be because she isn’t even my mother ??? Could I be stolen ,as though I was a farm animal she draws government funds for as well ?? Its a sinking feeling but suddenly made since how my mo'm'ster had ignored me , drew a social security check for me while i was a homeless  teen , not been in my life at all untill she found out I was having my own children, and then deliberately destroyed my life((( kidnapping my daughters over and over , filed false allegations of child abuse on me , harassed me relentlessly until she eventually stole my daughters)))) only to abandon me in Oklahoma and isolate me from that world by claiming I was a defective creature. Now my children are forced to call her mom, even if a grandmother adopted her grandchildren legitimately,Why the fuck call grand ma momma???            Its because we were never people to her ......... only livestock......                                             


A large number of  my civil and human rights have been deliberately violated in order to take my children from me ( a Buddhist tattoo artist ) and place them in a Christian home(or so claimed as Christian) with my monster  ‘’mother’’. While my mother seems like a sweet old lady to everyone else I know by experience in great proportions of the passive aggressive nature she is hiding behind Stockholm syndrome, as the simple concept of her lie is that those children need her and shes been forced into these burdens. However, my mother linda had a son that died before I was born, while adoption would have been refused, I think that's a pretty good excuse for black market adoption, fallowed by the Alexander families power over north Georgia.   Now , Linda Alexander Maddox  is known for a consistent pattern of adopting children to get money from the government benefits, she also is emotionally and mentally abusive.

The children in her care are only objects, as my adopted little brothers biological mother died only a few weeks after his grandfather, his mothers father. With all that has been happening to my little brother.... even if I call to talk to my daughters she needs to gossip about him , I of course don't allow that, i don't have the power or money to sue this monster but I am defensively recording every phone call . Linda tried to accuse me of tampering with the recordings, however if that is a actual issue she could record the phone calls on her end to , lol but of course she doesn't, because she is the one that  lies..... 
 I recorded the phone calls where she talks badly about my little brother but removed it from here out of respect for my little brother....

I now have complicated post-traumatic stress disorder , from the hell of being treated with so much hatred from my own mother . From the pure fact that while she degraded me , while she tore my little mind apart, claiming that I was just a horrible person and then convincing my stepfather he needed to force me to listen to her , eventually accelerated to the point that if I said anything or even held up my arms to defend myself from a swing I would get it worse  . It makes since now , She never connected with me , she never loved me , she wasn’t my mother…..

This is no threat or notice of my current actions as the entirety of my financial, physical, and emotional means are vastly depleted by my previous endeavors to seek justice. However , im contacting you as a desperate , heartbroken,cry for help. As a single mother in Oklahoma America I once worked two manual labor jobs , and worked as a tattoo artist, and sold my paintings and artwork,and ran a after school art class to keep the kids in my neighborhood out of danger , virtually alone, while my mother or her family never once visited my home I still thought that my daughter shouldn’t alienated from the family , even if they didn’t like me. Unfortunately for us visiting her grandmother turned into never seeing mommy again.

They illegally petition for custody of my daughter D’les Elexia Star Spiderbite Alexander , fraudulently claiming I had abandoned my daughter, and making accusations that I was mentally incapable of caring for my daughter, accusations that I was homeless, and most importantly that they had no involvement in any other custody cases involving this child. However, they were directly responsible for the first custody battle, as under my mothers direction, my stepfather drove my daughter to a third party, and lied about me using drugs on the witness stand, in an effort to have my parental rights terminated.

     § 19-9-24.  Actions by physical or legal custodian not permitted in certain instances

   (a) A physical custodian shall not be allowed to maintain against the legal custodian any action for divorce, alimony, child custody, change of alimony, change of child custody, or change of visitation rights or any application for contempt of court so long as custody of the child is withheld from the legal custodian in violation of the custody order.

(b) A legal custodian shall not be allowed to maintain any action for divorce, alimony, child custody, change of alimony, change of child custody, or change of visitation rights or any application for contempt of court so long as visitation rights are withheld in violation of the custody order.


Having a narcissistic parent is like fighting a war , fighting to the death , but as a child more like a retarded kid  running into a brick wall,  with no helmet , over and over, trying to get to the other side .

Unfortunately for me , my brick wall hit back .. my narcissistic mother married a blind man, , , more like married an emotionally immature ‘’money tree’’ ……….here nor there , my childhood was an epic battle . I was ,  overweight, with bad hygiene and socially inept. Isolated from the world, I grew up in the country, 120 acers of land , means lots of horses, goats, bunnies, solitude, privacy, isolation  … no one to play loud music , no one to bug you , no one can hear you scream…… no one to witness the abuse , no one to help you, no escape….            ….. the worst abuse is emotional , and mental , telling me  , I was worthless, I was ugly I was fat , I was her burden, …….. ….  As most narcissist she latched onto my innocent youthful ignorance,  she drained my heart , and pushed , trying to brake me , because if I was labeled as mentally unstable she thought she could become my payee for a social security check. When you listen to these videos ,imagine being a child , Being absolutely dependent on this person, trying to grow into a woman  ….    I learned from her cruelty how to be kind , I learned unacceptable isn’t a fault in the person not accepted, but in the faults of others insecurities. 


I have posted my court documents , and recorded phone conversations in which  my mother admits a verbal agreement between she and I had been made before I had allowed my daughter Star to go there for ‘’vacation’’ while I was moving from one city to another inside Oklahoma,usa, admitted  to conspiring against me in multiple felonies, admits to knowing her accusations in her petition had been false when she filed it,  and  (( A aggravating narcissistic trait  iv been tortured by my entire life  ))  she lies about 90% of everything she says,  blatantly fabricating imaginary laws ,imaginary doctors ,imaginary therapist, and far-fetched fabricated drama and theories , claiming once even that her inability to get my daughters medical records without my consent was considered child neglect on my part.

I would also like to add that the severity of this injustice has left me with complex post traumatic stress disorder,for which I require a ptsd service dog , and if this injustice has not been recognized and legally placed in an unbiased ,neutral, court I would have grounds to sue the state of Georgia for unlawful neglect. This is not important to me, I want no money only to get my daughters home , and remove the false allegations, and horrible rumors,  that cost me my reputation, and ruined my life .   (((\legal jargon aside the helplessness a human being suffers from when there child is placed with there childhood abuser is unbearable, but in this case they learned that I was legally permitted to challenge there custody of my first daughter and so they took extreme steps to get custody of my second daughter as well.  Please help me bring this to the attention of someone who can help us





The union county court system ((Blairsville Georgia ))  has crossed far far over the lines of  favoritism and discrimination. In a custody case involving a child who belonged to another jurisdiction.  (Jurisdiction set when the petitioners had lost a custody battle , for the same child , a year earlier in noble county Oklahoma). The custody case was seen under the wrong venue (civil small claims court , instead of family or probate court )in an effort to avoid the legal requirements and competent evidence (such as any examination by any licensed and appropriate professionals of the child or her parent)  and receive custody before the biological mother (my self ), or any state officials knew legal action had been taken.



((This means that nether my daughter or I was represented by a lawyer , the case began and ended quickly in a matter of weeks, using the Alexander’s family name and reputation to rush it through and the same child I won custody of before was now treated like an uncontested adoption.

 However, between the civil courts awarding emergency custody, and then ordering permanent custody I had found out about the situation, and drove from Oklahoma to Georgia and submitted an answer explaining the situation and circumstances , however that paperwork was detached from the case and forgotten , leading to the lawyer representing the other parties to claim that I had known the exact court date for the permanent custody trial, and simply refused to show up because I had abandoned my daughter. This was a complete lie .The same daughter ((in the first custody battle)) whom I followed over multiple state lines (after my stepfather *Gary Maddox* kidnapped her)) and fought for custody of (( against my mothers friend whom gary Maddox left her with Cassandra Smith)). 



   My name is Minka sati  Alexander, and my problem (simply stated) is that my own emotionally abusive mother has fraudulently, illegally, and unlawfully, taken custody of my daughters through a corrupt court ((((the civil court NOT EVEN family court meaning nether my daughter or I was given a lawyer  ))))and alienated them from me completely ,forcing them to call her momma (((in a hope I will be forgotten ))) . Her main motive being income she draws from the government benefits ,but also to strike back at me for cutting her out of my life ((shes a narcissist and my childhood was an unfair twisted game of mother may I , Shes constantly claiming that she is the victim, needing an army of misleadingly bound minions. Her own behavior as an emotionally and mentally abusive parent has left quite a paper trail in Oklahoma. I have a enough evidence and witnesses that trying to get custody of star would not only be impossible but could result in the custody of my older daughter returned to me as well. This is because when they adopted my older daughter Emily I was mislead by my mother. I was only 18 and married Emily’s father in an effort to retain my families respect. Then shortly after we were web , He became violent , and was spending large periods of time away from home, doing drugs and sleeping around. So when my mother convinced  me that my husband would probably take our daughter in a divorce I let my mother  adopt Emily ,think the adoption would be reversed once my husband was out of the picture  . I did that because I was horrified , and only because I wanted to keep her safe, but when my parents adopted Emily they started getting a social security check to care for Emily, a child care income branched from my stepfathers social security disability income. This sealed my grave. So if Emily was placed under my custody they also lost that check, but if star was placed under there custody they would get a second check))


As a child she isolated me from the rest of our family members in north Georgia and became monstrously mentally and emotionally abusive. Yet , relentlessly  fabricating gossip and rumors about me being a horrible child.

   I was,in my preteen years, so desperately trying to escape from the torture I was constantly constructing elaborate plans for running away. One such plan failed abruptly as I , a 13  year old girl,, drove over a cliff. I had been siting in my 25 year old boyfriends car , alone  , instantaneously  a feeling washed over me that I could just drive away , this ended poorly , mostly because I never stopped driving, and fell asleep behind the wheel ,awakening to the sound of a helicopter and overwhelming pain.

    Later , my mother loosened her grip allowing me to spend most of my time away from home, until she  eventually  started  telling me not to come back. I started tattooing at 14 , opening doors to people of every kind . I was a homeless child with nothing and no one , while she was still collecting social security to care for me. She did the same with my little brother Harley Maddox , whom they adopted, . It’s not just one child she took advantage of,but a consistent pattern. It’s a pattern that horrifies me because my daughters are next in line  So , my human rights seem more like a fairytale . I can see …. Even exiled hundreds of miles away…. I can see the signs of emotional ,and mental abuse on my own baby’s. Yet , I cant do anything, cant hold them, cant be with them cant even visit them, not because of anything I did or didn’t do , but only because someone else ,someone with more money , someone Christian belonging to their church, someone whos family name demands respect, wanted them.

My reason for telling you these stories isn’t an effort to gain empathy , but to illustrate to you the gravity of this situation 

While no one in Georgia actually knows me, because I have lived far away since I was a small child , everyone thinks im a horrible person. The damage my mother has done to my reputation has caused an extremely cruel bias towards me , so extreme The judge tried to tell me ((after he made the court reporter leave the courtroom ))I had no right to appeal or to take ANY LEGAL ACTION. I have even been threatened with physical violence by the alexander family If I try to come visit my daughters ((please note that my parental rights have not been terminated only unlawfully interrupted )).   


In addition to this case the history of frivolous litigations concealed by ignoring jurisdiction laws that they have terrorized me with span the entirety of my daughters lives .  She organized the kidnapping of my daughter Star , across multiple state lines placing her with my mothers friend  a woman named Cassandra Smith who I fought in court  and won full custody of my daughter Star (((This makes her claim that star hadn’t had any court cases arguing custody anywhere before , in the petition for custody they field in Georgia a deliberate lie. Especially since my stepfather ‘’the kidnapper’’ made accusations ‘’which he admitted were lies in the same line of questioning ‘’that I was a cocaine addict )))They have made numerous false allegations of child neglect and abuse ((once even causing the dcs in Blairsville to suggest I move out of the state because of the obvious signs of fabrication )) She has ignited multiple conspiracies to destroy my life and has been relentlessly determined to deteriorate my character, even by manipulating my weakness ,as I mourned the death of my fiancĂ©.


In this  pursuit of justice and finding sanctuary its become a light to me on concepts and theories of society I would never have seen from this perspective. I started Christian, then began to question ideals set by societies. Im left a completely different person than I started, and the works of Oscar Wilde , and Marcus Aurelius pressed me to design a large scale commune, implementing equality and returning dignity to homeless, and lost creatures of our species. I have hitchhiked from one side of the country to the other , fearless , because once I lost my daughter star I had nothing left to lose. All I found as I was searching for sanctuary was others who are just as lost as I was.  However , now Im only 27 …less than half of my life has past, now that I have traveled and seen, lost my babies to Christian monsters , became a illegitimate widow,  I have gathered wisdom and know I haven’t lost my daughters forever, but the wisdom of knowing I will be with them eventually doesn’t erase the pain of missing them , and mirrors the coldness of my own mother, as I couldn’t do to my daughter what she’s done to me.  And for that reason Seeing Melinda elks face instantly brought tears to my eyes …..


Please please help me , Share , tell my story , save my babies and I from the childrens black market…bring this to the attention of someone who can set this right.  Even a chance to get a fair trial would be a miracle for us. 

                       Thank you …. Minka sati Alexander


I remember watching an Obama speech and crying .... because i have no rights, I had lost everything i had , because these laws where never enforced. I was a wonderful mother and yet i couldnt even see
My children. They violated jurisdiction laws , due process of law, frivolous litigations concealed by ignoring jurisdiction laws, terrorized me even before I had children they were trying none stop to destroy my reputation .... but its all lies ..

I come from a tight knit community  , my parents  moved away ,because they knew gossip in there Southern Baptist community was dangerous. My stepfathers anger was out of control and while i was being abused , my mother didnt want to leave him because he was disabled, and only because being disabled from work meant he would get a supportive income from multiple places, such as workmans comp, and social security, and even a social security check to care for me , '' their '' minor child.
   To escape the gossip , but keep the income, they moved away , and when the gossip caught up with them they moved farther away . Eventually, we had gone from blairsville ga , all the way to Oklahoma, and from visiting Georgia  family on holidays , to me becoming a completely isolated child, and my parents  complaining about me like a demon child out of control, and using   false accusations making there aggressive force reasonably warranted.

   It all started out in blairsville ,ga , after at the age of 3 i ran away after dark one night ,was picked up by a complete stranger (a 18 year old boy,concerned by a cute curly blonde haired baby wondering down a county road ) and dropped me off at the house a mile down who luckly knew my parents. Although people where concerned it was chalked up to be a child wandering out of bed and down the street. However shortly after that there was an incident where i was walking down the highway in the middle of the day , my stepfather didn't realize i wasn't home until the sound of car horns caught his attention, he chased me down , ''beat dat ass good n'd proper''  (these people seriously spoke that way )and after multiple people  called the police an officer came to our house and made me move my clothes to check for bruises .... these are the earliest memories i carry but far from the hole story . My life started the trauma there , and then my stepfather lost his vision in an accident at work . The loss of his vision made him worse , overwhelmed by the insecurities, and helplessness he latched onto my mother for emotional support. so,    as my mother was rewarded for marrying a disabled man by both the admiration of strangers and financial security it became impossible for her to confess that she was ignoring the wellbeing of her own child . As time passed and I became older it became harder and harder for her to face until she decided I was the problem, but realistically they where so abusive , that torture distorted my mind ,,((so extreme was the ridicule over how ugly , nasty, and unwanted i was , i would hide in the pastures of our 100 acre farm so i could draw beautiful girls in beautiful dresses then burying the books and pencils to hide them, until my stepfather fallowed me into the woods one day, spied on my make-shift sanctuary, then dig up my sketches and took them to my mother .... i remember the night very well , i was degraded and attacked by both of them as gary told me my art was pornographic and tore apart the last threads of my mind, parts I had been desperate trying to hide.))
     I had been so traumatized at that point that I would purposely miss the school buss GOING HOME FROM SCHOOL so i wouldn't have to be facing my stepfather alone. When the school noticed the problem, and talked to my stepfather, he told them i was afraid, but of the bullies on the school buss. The principle of Okemah middle school set me down and talked to me about bullys telling me I HAD TO DEFEND MYSELF. I did stand up to my school bullies and got ''swats'' but also i started standing up to other bullies , meaning my mom and step dad. Then finally I began to fight back. Before that i had accepted hopelessness and just took the abuse, but after that i was willing to at least try to defend myself.  While the abuse got worse and more often becoming physically violent my mother would block the exits so I couldn't  escape the abuse, and at that point she wasn't  watching anymore she was helping. She talks about this stuff now as if i was constantly becoming violent for no reason at all, calling me bipolar.

Every time something extreme happened we would move to another state , until i finally after years of attempting suicide , desperately attempting to run away, at 16 i simply left home. There are plenty of legal reports documenting all of this, and in 2009 my step dad even lied on the witness stand during a custody battle. He told the court i had been sent to a rehab for crack cocaine, eventually admitting to it being a lie. Of course he had lied, In 2009 he drove my baby daughter across state lines from Georgia  to Oklahoma and gave my daughter to a friend of my mothers, who applied for emergency custody and started a custody battle THAT I WON.... Now, I have proof above and beyond what is necessary. I complied with cps, dhs, taken multiple parenting classes, only to walk into a courthouse in 2012 ,and have the judge refuse to look at my petition, and even refused to talk to me until the court reporter completely left the room.     It was loss of such magnitude , being treated by even the people who are supposed to help me like i wasn't worth the effort of reading my papers or recording that i had even been there.   This was 'wrong' i have proof that the accusations are preposterous, proof of a conspiracy to degrade my reputation ,  but in there world its not important what the truth is , only what the grape vines are saying ....

         My mother was insulted by my leaving that horrible home but she never said that to me. She couldn't have because in actuality she loathed my freedom and my independence. Her life may have been hard , and she may have experienced hardships, but after years of terrorized oppression that fat little girl that she and her goon had taken there anger out on I became something she never could. I became a truly great woman .

I was emotionally honest , leaving bad relationships while we still respected each other even when it hurts so fucking bad (while she was lieing to herself, and her husbands , and had multiple affairs because she was to cowardly to step out on her own...even telling me at 12 she couldnt leave the stepfather who beat me .. because of me). I became selfless voluntarily working as a free live in nanny ,to help myself heal emotionally I spent mouths in the Colorado mountains and nannied 4 different familys, i became wise , disgusted with the world desperately studding and attending lectures , trying to learn all i could about the human mind , because i needed to know how my own mother could do this shit. I wanted to understand why because she is my mother and i do love her enough to try to understand her       , I became humbled , gaining a respect for every human no matter what they  looked like , how they talked, where they came from  , and after she used shame and gossip to destroy my life i even could look beyond  someones past. Even if i was guilty of these lies it in no way warranted the termination of my biological parental rights without even a trial .....

     So as I was battling the realization that I was completely helpless, and my own mother had done this I also had to hide . As she applied for more financial help the child support officials beganto close in on me , after taking my exhusband to court , knowing that he wasn't even the biological father , i was receiving mail , saying that she was being paid tanf ( temporary assistance for needy familys, and that if i didn't pay the state back for that child support i would be given prison time . Now at this time she and my stepdad had adopted my nephew ,harley, making Harley my legal lit brother , and they received a social security check to care for him, but instead of caring for him in Georgia he was homeless in Oklahoma. She was also receiving child care social security for my oldest daughter they manipulated away from me (Emily) and for Star my youngest, And disabilities for gary both social security and workmans comp , and unemployment from dollar general, and child support, and food stamps (and thats only what i knew about). So I did again what i did as a minor when she was receiving a social security check for me and i was exiled , I went 100% off grid .... this means that for the last 5 years i have lived without a drivers license, without using my social security number , point blank , i went from working 2 jobs as a single mother to only under the table work , lucky me , the same oppressors who tormented me for showing being creative enough to mirror the pain they caused through artistic expression, had pushed me to desire tattooing.
I was a tattoo artist for over 11 years , and have sold paintings for over 3 grand , and thats without publicity or anoy gallery.... .Tattooing gave me multiple outlets to build self esteem, Admiration for cool chickness , artistic expression, artwork that was permanent and they couldn't take away from me . ((((   because my entire life they had been so vindictive that they would sneak around and take my artwork and of all kinds , this is why i had been burying my sketch pad. Of course art is a form of expression, sometimes the article themselves are trying to understand an emotion .Putting all that passion into a language all there own. So when they my took my art , and even degraded me for being emotionally honest, it pushed me to try harder and harder to express myself in a way they might understand. I had no idea that the hole time they did understand, they just didn't give a shit, they had no respect for me as a human being , much less for my artwork, especially when that artwork could shine a light on there cruel nature. They had tried so hard to blame me for everything that my mother took me to multiple mental health places ,but when the psychiatrist and counselors told her things she didn't want to hear she dropped that one and tried another one , and another , and another until finally she stopped trying to get a licensed mental health professional, and instead started enlisting complete strangers. Which is what she is doing now , shes never taken them to a professional, a woman comes but her house to talk sometimes , but she is only a friend of my mothers from church...

  She manipulated  these strangers into thinking she was just an innocent Christian mother who was needing help with this demonic creature(me) that was so violent and angry she was afraid to try and talk to me. This excuse worked so well for her , she has still been using it. So she is cruel and nasty, she deliberately says things that will upset me in order to make me upset ,calling my employers ,friends, and even poisoning romantic relationships ,  lie about my daughters, pretends to not remember conversations or promises then tell me my memory is broken , And my personal favorite is when she makes up insane fabricated rules and then says AND THATS THE LAW ..... THE LAW SAYS .. AND THATS THE LEGAL DEFINITION ... ..when she pushes me to the point that im actually angry , sits back and acts as if I have proven im mentally unstable. While her family ,small town vigilantes, don't know me , and have been hearing the gossip everywhere for years and years , not only do they ignore me , but im chased out of blairsville. The alexanders , meaning the Blairsville Georgia Alexander's, owners of multiple Alexander stores((landmark in north Georgia )) ,owners of trackrock campground and trackrockstable, and my grandfather Tommy Alexander helped build the union county chamber of commerce , own that town . They believe that my narcissistic mother really is the victim here , and so they stand behind my mother. They ignore my cries for help , and act as if they dont want to get involved , but they see my babies almost every day , and while i watch my daughters falling into the same situation, even showing signs of emotional abuse and neglect, Im not even allowed to see them .... i cant hold my own daughters                             

This life of mine has been difficult, and i have been treated like im not even  human .
BUT it's grown compassion for others , and while the situation truly is out of my control I do still have hope . So now while i am working toward my merchandise and planning my business strategy for my website my dream for my future is very clear in my mind. I am determined to build a large reservation ,a universal sanctuary for every human being concrete on dignity and equality , where i can give homeless not just shelter but give them back there dignity in an emotionally safe environment .. while i was born from a upper class family , i know how a good person can be destroyed by no fault of their own...