I reached a point where i didnt care what i had to do . I swore i would see my children if i had to hitchhike to ga and stand outside there school .. just to see them ... ... In april .. a dirty cold hearted biker warmed too the sadness in my story .. he set me up in a town just down the mountain and helped me get closer to my children ... then he died .. my hole world crashed .
But god found me ... I stood fearless in every dark hour ... My love for my daughters drove me to seek for truth and somehow god opened up my mothers heart and for two months i lived in her house ... The woman who tells the world i am but a lost soul , a thief and a lier . The time i got there was short .. But i held them ,sang to them , read star to sleep every night. My oldest is not oblivious to the situation , however she chooses to ignore it . My youngest knows all to well whats going on . Star(my youngest)even asked me "when you leave can you draw me a picture of you holding me so i can keep it forever"
Before we left the house that morning star had begged my mother to let me stay with her . My mother dodged the subject and made excuses and at a point got annoyed at star.
I lost everything. I was beaten.I was treated like an animal,less than human. I was drug through the mud,and piss and shit ,And for what?!? ... For that .. Star needed to know im still out here .. She needs that comfort that even though i cant be with her every day I love her more than ANYTHING .. I have fought a custody battle for her before and after almost a year I not only won but was respected by dhs for my dedication to my children past any odds. This isn't our first time to deal with this .
In the end , When its all over , I will still be her mother , no one can take that from us. I am her mother Minka Sati Alexander ,She is my daughter D'les Elexia Star Spider bite Alexander(yes thats her real name)
"mommy i was watching you sleep"
" So i wont forget what you look like when your gone."
I would rather be her magical dancing gypsy mother , show her through my tears how cruel discrimination can be, and how to fight back with love . I would rather be this thing i am... because of her ... Than be anything else . I can not even tell you the amount of pain that goes with a situation like this . But its worth every bit of the pain . Still if i cant have her to hold she was still an amazing blessing from god. I owe God pretty big on this one. So whatever i have to do for her , for them , i will do. No mater what battles i lose , i never give up the war.